Last night’s show repeated to Thursday night.
Frank had his aching leg for two days and then the
ache disappeared. They didn’t have any doubt about me that I was watching them.
Luke thinks I’m a baby and I don’t know about sex. Many times I want to ask him
to show me the heaven but don’t.
On Friday Aunt Sarah and her family left. We invited
them for Christmas and they accepted. It had long time they been to us. In
point of fact, it was when Luke was five and I didn’t born then.
We were in the drawing room and Frank was not with
us. Luke was searching for him. He was gloomy yesterday and at night crying and
their sex was very violent. They had it three times when I am awake after that
I slept. When I woke at six they are sleeping full naked sticking to each
other. I had to pretend sleep and wait for them to awake and gone. I did it for
Luke so he hadn’t embarrassed before me. They both seemed exhausted but hide it
from others. Nobody had any doubt about them. Only I know about what going
between them.
There is half hour left for them to leave. I said
bye to them and kissed by everybody because I’m the bay of the family, I was
exhausted from the kisses. So I left them there. I was going through the
corridor to the backside of the house. There I a big tree in the yard and I
want to climb it.
I reached middle of the corridor then I heard some
mumbled sound coming from the room on my left side. It was an empty room and
some old things kept there. Nobody goes there. I was surprised of the sounds
coming from that door. So, I pushed the door and it opened with a soft sound. I
opened a little and get inside. Some old furniture is there and the sounds
comes other side of a cupboard.
“Stop crying now…. I said I will be back within two
days.” I heard Luke saying.
So I hid behind the cupboard and look the other
side. Frank was sitting on an old box and Luke is standing in front of him. He
put his hands on Frank’s shoulder and patting. Frank stops crying and cleaned
his face with his hands. Luke gave him his kerchief. He stands as he drying his
eyes and Luke hugged him. He kissed his mouth.
“Come, everybody is waiting.” He kissed Frank again.
They turned to the door and I slip slowly to other
side. Luke stopped at the door and said, “You go Frank, I want to stay here
some time alone.”
Frank looks suspiciously to him and asked, “Why?”
Calm my mind and emotions. You know….?” Luke said a
little smile.
Frank nodded and left the room. Luke closed the door
and bolted it.
“Josh, show yourself from where you are hiding.” He
said loudly.
I was trapped. He knows that I was here. I appeared
with an innocent look on my face. He looks angry but I saw a smile corner of
his mouth.
“What was doing here?” he asked.
“Nothing.” I shrugged.
“Did you see us?” He asked
“No. but I heard you. That’s why I came.” I said
innocently. “I love you, Luke. Don’t hit me. I will never do this”. I pleaded.
He crossed the distance to me and I looked up to
him. He is smiling. He hugged me hard. My head reached his chest and I buried
my face there. He kissed top of my head and part from me a little. I looked up
to his face and he put his hands on my shoulders and bends his face to me. He
kissed me on my mouth. He released my mouth and looked into my eyes.
“That’s for my baby cousin,” he said softly. “Time
to go or they will doubt.”
We were near to the door and he raise his hand to
unlock but stopped. He pulled me to him and hugged me hard. I hugged back and
felt the cock on my stomach. It is semi hard. We didn’t say anything but hugged
each other. He blushed as I lift my face and I look him. I was amazed to see
his blushing. I never see a grown man blushing. He hugged me one more time and
said softly. “I love you, my baby.”
And he parted from me. I looked him and saw the
bulge in front of his pants. He looked me as blushing more and patted hardly
over his bulge to straight it. So no one will doubt us as they see us together.
“Sorry Josh, I forget one minute about myself. You
are a little child. I didn’t have……” he looked sorry. I feel sorry. So I put my
hand to envelop him and kissed his chest. And I smiled. I know he think it a
baby act.
“Don’t be sorry. I am your brother and I love you” I
kissed his chest once more and he patted my head.
We opened the door and came to others. He is holding
my hand and his bulge had gone. I know he loves me even he had sex with Frank.
I was proud. Frank was there with everybody. He looked us doubtfully but didn’t
say anything. Car was loaded and uncle is sitting front seat. My cousins and
aunt were crying and so the others.
“Where were you Luke?” Uncle asked.
“Up stair with Josh. My little cousin is there
crying because we are going. So, I had to sooth him and carry him down.” He
lied.
Every body laughed and I blushed. Aunt and his
sisters climbed in and Luke shook hands with dad and uncle Ed. He patted me and
looked Frank a last time. Frank stood there crying. He was opening the door of
the driver’s side and I ran to him and embraced him. He laughed as he lifted me
from the floor. He rubbed his nose on my stomach and lowered me. He kissed my
cheeks and his eyes are wet. I was crying too. He kissed me once more and down
me to floor.
“Time to go,” he said softly to my ears and climbed
inside and started the car.
We stand and look as there car was disappeared from
our view.
Frank keep himself in the room and night he was
silent to me.
We took leave in the early morning and arrived home
about three after midnight. It was raining hard as we reached home. As we were
close to our house I looked the Taylor’s. There was no light in the house.
Every body is sleeping.
Dad opened the door and we ran in to the house from
the rain. Mom quickly made some coffee for us. After drinking coffee we get in
our rooms and slept. We woke late in the morning. After a quick breakfast dad
went to open the shop. Three of us cleaned the house. Mom and Emily prepared
lunch because Mina wouldn’t be here till tomorrow.
After lunch mom said she is going Jess’, so I and
Emily. Jess aunt greet us in and
we were sitting with them. My eyes were searching Chris but he is not there.
Mom and Emily were speaking about Grandpa.
Where is Chris? I turned to Grandma to ask but see
me and said,
“Chris is in his room with your friend.”
What friend? She said, “John. He is here about an
hour and they are doing something on computer about his assignment.”
Chris is with John? Working with computer? I know
about when he was with me and doing the computer. He is doing that with John.
Something collapsed in my mind. I want to cry. I was angry. I don’t belong
here.
“Hey Josh…. You are back..!” John ran down the
stairs and Chris is coming down too. I saw he is wearing pants and shirt.
John hugged me. I smiled to him. But I didn’t smile
to Chris. I ignored him as he was there. But his face keyed up seeing me. He
was laughing and pulled me to him and hugged hard.
“I thought you forget me and not coming.” he said
and his hands enfold me tight. I said something about Grandpa’s death and
funeral and struggle me to free. My body is thrilled. But my mind is clouded
with doubts.
“What assignment are you doing?” I turned to John.
“Assignment? Oh… it’s a science project for
exhibition.” He said. “Chris is helping me.”
Science
Exhibition? It is in October. But
I didn’t say anything. I looked
Chris and he smiled. Mom and Emily left after some time but grandma asked me to
stay.
So I was sitting there with grandma and talking to
her. Chris and John sit opposite of us and Chris is looking me. I ignored them.
I have a lump in my throat whenever I looked him.
John said rain is stopped now so he was going. He
will come tomorrow if it was okay with Chris. Chris said he is free after two
and John can come. John left us.
Chris looking me with a frown and he narrowed his
eyes. He knows I am ignoring him. He gets up from where he was sitting and sits
beside me. His thigh was touching mine and put his hand my shoulder. I sit
still. He looks as he wants to say something but didn’t. He only sighed.
That evening there was a crowd in our house. They
came for say their condolence and share the loss of ours. They are mom and
dad’s friends, church members, teachers from my school and friends of Emily
etc…John and Daniel came too with their parents. I was with them in my room for
some time about speaking about school. I saw they didn’t show their relation
and actually speak two three sentence to each other whole the time they are
together with me. I understand John didn’t tell him I knew about them. He
didn’t talk about Chris too.
My mom was calling us. So, we jointed to them in the
drawing room. Chris was there in the crowd. He is in a little group talking
with them. I saw he is looking me as he is talking. Some girls was looking him
too and nudging each other. He saw I was looking him. A naughty smile appeared
on his lips and he called John to join him. He is ignoring me.
John’s face bloomed. He excused me and Daniel and
joined the crowd. Chris pulled John in front of him and his hand tied together
on John’s stomach. John had a dreamy look on his face. Chris complete ignored
me as I was not there and continued his speak. I looked Daniel sideways and saw
his face darkened. His fingers closed a tight fist and he was looking Chris and
John. I understand. I know what he felt.
As I was looking them my heart filled with the lost.
The lost of Grandpa, Chris all came to me in full force and breaking me. John,
my best friend stole Chris. The lump was hard in my throat and tears filled.
Suddenly I shut my eyes tight and cried loudly.
The room was silent except my loud crying. I heard
foot steps as some one came to me. I felt some one touching me and suddenly I
was in a bear hug. That smell coming to my nose. Chris! I opened my eyes and
didn’t see anything. My face was buried in his chest and my voice was mumbled.
I was shaking and he held me close.
‘Josh…” I heard concerned voice of my parents and
sister.
“Leave him alone...” Chris was saying softly. “Let
him cry.”
“It’s okay Tom”. Grandma said to my dad. “He needs
it. Let him… “
I was hushed now but Chris’ bear hug is not. We
stand like this for some minutes and he lifted me to his body. He carried me to
my room and put me one the bed. He sat beside me but didn’t speak. He was
silent and sighed sadly. I shut my
eyes and pretended sleep. I felt his lips on my forehead and he left me there
alone.
Next day in school I was silent. I saw John was
looking me. He had doubts in eyes as he looked me. We ate lunch silently. I
completed early and washed hands. I excused John and walked to our class room.
It was empty. I sat on my seat and leaned my head on the desk. I was looking
blankly through the window.
John came and sits beside me. He put his hand on my
shoulder.
“Are you feeling not well?”
“No, my head is aching.” I lied. He nodded and
patted my shoulder softly.
“I have the notes completed for you.” He said.
I raised my head and said thanks. I looked him and
said, you are a good friend, John”
We smiled. I asked him, “What project are you doing
with Chris?”
I saw his face blooming and he said excitedly,
“oh…it. It is for the science exhibition.”
“But exhibition is coming on October. You have a lot of time.” I said.
“I know. But I want to ready for then.” John is
heating, “I said Chris about this project one day and he said he would help me.
It is he who said that I start now and don’t wait for October. Time will not
wait for us so don’t waste it.”
I was
too late for learn that. I thought and asked, “How did you know Chris?”
“I was there Saturday to meet you. Your house was
locked and I was coming back Chris is in his yard. I called him and asked about
you. He told me about your Grandpa and you would be back after one week and
asked who am I. I said Josh is my friend and we are in the same year. The aunt
came out and invited me in. She asked about my family. As we were talking I
said about the project and Chris said he can help me. He asked me to come when
I was free so I agreed. We got very well so now we are best friends.”
He was talking this without breathing and I decided
there is more than that. So, I waited.
“He is handsome. You know…” suddenly he laughed. “He
tells me you are a kid and I told him you are fourteen and no more a kid”
“Thanks for that information” I said.
“Ah... we were in the harbor one day. I told him
about our woods and want to see it. So one day we went to the woods and he
liked it.”
My heart sank. He was heating more about Chris and
him but I wasn’t listening. I was seeing Chris and John in the woods. John
bending in front of Chris and both were naked. Chris was standing John’s back
and moving to and fro. I closed my eyes but the scene remained.