I was thinking about what Emily said and
Chris. What’s he doing now? He is not thinking about me! He has a lot of work
to do other than thinking about me. Why did he talk about me to my sister? His
smell is not completely gone from me. I think it’s a part of me and last
forever…..
I heard some noises coming from other bed. I
turned my eyes there and look hard to make out. They are speaking but I can’t
hear what. Someone is sighing and giggling…
I look hard.
I saw they are moving and twisting. I heard
kissing sounds. Kissing? Someone is moving over another. “Bite me there” it’s
Freddy. What are they doing? A long moan came from Freddy. So, the one laying
on his back is Freddy and other one moving over him is Frank.
I kept my breath and centered my attention
on them. Frank moved down. I can make out them because of the light coming
through the window. They both are full naked. Freddy’s body is twisting as
Frank moved over him. His head sank between Freddy’s partly lifted thighs. I
heard sucking sounds and as Freddy moaned, “Fast… fast...
Freddy straighten his legs on bed. I saw
Frank’s head moving up and down as he drinks Freddy. His one hand picking the
cock and other is massaging Freddy’s stomach. Freddy is moaning and twisting
his body. Then suddenly it stopped. Both lay still and I can hear only the long
hard breaths they taking.
I feel hardness is in my underwear. My
little cock is struggling in my underwear to stand straight. I moved my hand
there and pressed. It is very hard and throbbing inside. I softly massaged it
over the underwear and trouser as looked the other bed.
Frank is moving up and lying top of Freddy.
Their hands wrapped around each other.
Freddy’s hand moving top of Frank’s back
side and buttocks. He is massaging Frank as he is moving top of him. They are
kissing each other and sucking their mouths. They are telling each other as
taking long breaths. Frank’s motion became fast and fast and he is sighing and
panting.
Then he lay still on top of Freddy and
panting hard. Freddy’s massage became faster and he hugged Frank hard to him.
I had seen how Daniel and John having sex
but this is new to me. I didn’t understand how Frank and Freddy is doing? Is
Chris has knowledge about all of this? Chris. I wished Chris here with me on
this cot. I don’t know if I want he do to me what Frank and Freddy did to each
other. I want he kiss me and lay with me and hug me hard. I want his smell to
inhale and whole my body. I want his heat coming to me. Oh… Chris… I love you…
I said silently.
Someone is standing beside my cot and I saw
his bare legs. I closed my eyes.
“He is sleeping….” Frank. “He doesn’t know
or see as you afraid… if he had seen; he didn’t know what it was.”
He goes to the bathroom and I heard the water running. He
returned and lies beside Freddy.
“Hey Fred, I am still hot. Are you? Touch it
boy”. Frank said to him.
“May I cool it?” Freddy is giggling.
“Why do you cut some of your jungle? It is
very thick sticking to my lips and nose.” Freddy is complaining. What is the
jungle? I opened my eyes and looked them. Frank is lying on his back. His hands
are forcing Fred’s head to his middle. Fred is sucking his cock. So, Jungle is
his pubic hair. I need to learn more.
I moved my hands inside the waistline of my
trouser and underwear. My cock is hard like a stick. I pressed it and take it
in my hand. I can’t move my hand because of my tight brief. I touch top of my
cock and pressed my finger. I was thinking about Chris’ cock pressed on my
stomach. I remember the sticking wetness on my T shirt and in front of his
trouser and white brief. I touched the piss hole but none of any liquid there.
But it felt good. So I continued…..
There is no sound coming from Frank and
Freddy. Both are lying still hugging each other. So tried hard to sleep………..
When I was awake it was nine o’ clock. Both
boys are already up and not in the room. I got up and went to the bathroom. I
came to the dining room and Emily is there and speaking with Frank and aunts.
“Good morning.” I said to every body.
“Slept well?” Aunt asked.
“yeah.” I replied. I saw Frank looking me
sideways. I kept my face blank.
“Do you want to come with us?” Emily asked.
“We are going to hospital.”
I said yes. Later we went to hospital.
Grandpa was well for next two days. The
doctor said now there nothing to worry and we can take him home after two day.
Mom called Jess Aunt the after the day doctor
told this. They speak for some time. After mom told us everything is okay
there. The rain became heavier and pouring day and night continually. The
weather is cold. People residing the seashore having problems because of the
rain and now is staying in the schools for some days. Aunt, Chris and other
people from the church and other institutions are helping them. She told her
them now grandpa is well so we are planning to leave for home the next day
grandpa is home.
I was happy. Now I hated Frank more. That
night repeated for two more nights
He knows that I know what they did that
night. On Tuesday I met Freddy at the sweet shop in the street. He walks with
me and asked about our home, my friends etc. then he looked into my eyes and
said.
“You know about us”.
I keep my face blank and asked, “What?”
“Oh… don’t be such an ass Josh; you are not
a baby. I know you are not sleeping and saw what we are doing…” he was a little
angry.
I looked him and said nothing. “It’s…” he
stammered. He looked down, “it’s going between us for a while. Nobody knows
about this. We are friends from childhood and you know …….”
Yes. I know. “I’m not going to tell...” I said. He said nothing. I said bye to
him because we reached the gate of his house.
I knew that he had told Frank. His face
darkened whenever he sees me. We speaks only in front of others and didn’t in
the room we are sharing. Inwardly I am afraid of him. He looks me like he wants
to hit me.
Days are passing slowly.
We were decorating the house for welcome
grandpa home. Every body is here for his homecoming. His daughters, their
husbands and children and everyone were creating an atmosphere that remembers
me a fish market. Aunt Sarah has only one son named Luke and he is doing the
college. Aunt dolly has twin daughters named Elise and Alice and last year in
their senior school. All of my cousins are elder than me.
We had two rains within the period we are
here. Today, the sky is darkened and perhaps going to pour. Dad and uncle were
in hospital and will be here around noon with grandpa. Mom and aunts were in
the kitchen preparing cake for welcoming grandpa. I was with Emily and our
cousins. We were sitting in the frond lawn and speaking. Not me. I was left
alone with my thinking. Frank was telling them what he wants to do after
completing the school. He was acting innocent in front of them.
Suddenly they turned to me and I was a
little feared. Cousin Luke was saying something which I don’t here.
“What?” I asked.
I am asking you what’s your planning for the
future.” He repeated.
To live with Chris! I thought and blushed.
But I said, “I don’t know. I am only fourteen.”
“He is a baby. He will let others will do
the planning for them.” Frank looks me and rolled his eyes.
“Leave him alone, do you Frank?” my sister
snapped. “He will plan about his future when he reaches your age.”
Frank was silent but I saw he is looking me
venomously.
All were silent. Everybody knows that Frank
hates me. But nobody knows why. Even I. the reason is known only to him. Luke
changed the subject and telling us about his college life.
I left them and go to the room and lied on
the cot. As lying there sleep came to me and I slept.
I woke up as hearing the screeching sound of
brakes.
Grandpa is home! I ran down the stairs to
front door. Everyone is crowding there and the women are crying. My mom holding
grandma and both are crying. What happened? I rushed through them to the front
and saw the vehicle. It is an ambulance and its doors open. Dad, uncle and two
other men lifted a coffin from inside and carried the coffin to us.
Grandpa was lying inside. His eyes are closed
forever and his hands crossed on his chest. He was dead.
Later I knew from Emily that he was well and
happy to come home. As dad uncle were packing the things he told them he felt
tiredness and want to rest for five minutes. He lies on the bed and shut the
eyes. After some minutes uncle called him but he didn’t opened his eyes. He was
dead.
Our relatives of Pondicherry and neighbors
came to see grandpa. Funeral kept for Saturday. After the funeral a memorial
service on Sunday after church. Relatives and family friends were coming from
the distance.
I didn’t cry for grandpa how much I want
too. Tears not came from my eyes and I amazed to see that Frank was crying like
a baby. The house was full of people and they kept grandpa in the big hall. I
didn’t see my parents or my sister. I keep myself in Frank’s room. Now we are
sharing the room with Luke and two other boys I didn’t know. They will go after
funeral but Luke will be here for some days.
I shut my self in the room. Rain didn’t fall
on the day when grandpa died. Not for the next day. It is waiting like me.