I told Chris about John and his doubts. He laughed
and assured me he will take care of that in future. Next day we acted normal
before John. We had sex that day but when John arrived we are sitting and
reading. He looked each other and asked Chris,
“Chris, may I ask you something about yourself?”
“Yes, what you want to know about Me.? Chris looked
me and smiled.
John looked me and asked Chris, “Do you have any
girlfriend?”
“Yes,” Chris laughed, he looked me and said, “Yes,
I have someone waiting for me. Within three or four years we will be together.”
John was looking Chris face. Sky rumbled and
lighting struck. I was crestfallen. Chris laughed more and asked,
“Why did you ask John?”
“Nothing, I want to know.” He smiled, “Josh, what
happened to you?”
“I’m afraid of lightning, you know” I said suddenly
and sit on the bed. Chris came to me and holds me close to him.
“Don’t fear. I’m here with you….” and quickly
added, “John is here. We didn’t allow the lightning come near you.”
I went home that evening and depressed. Chris has a
girlfriend and they will marry after he would complete his study. What a fool I
was! Then he had to marry. I told me. He can’t marry me. The social order will
not be pleased about and would not accept us. We will be a laughing stock. But
we have our love and no one have the awareness of us. That’s enough for me. I
never heard a man married a man! I was miserable thinking more about this.
Emily asked me what got in my head at dinner and I
told nothing. It’s a toothache and mom said it is the time for me to have a
check up. She said tomorrow after school she takes me to dentist.
Next morning I met Chris on my way to school. He
was waiting for me at his gate.
“Good morning Jo...” he greeted.
“Where are you going so early? I was astonished.
“Can I walk with you?” he asked.
I looked him doubtingly and nodded. We walked
slowly some time.
“I do not have a girlfriend.” He suddenly said.
I looked him with a surprise. He is waiting for me
to say this!
“John was testing us and he wanted some hint about
us. He has some doubts. So, I had to tell him a lie. I don’t want anyone will
know about us before the time. It would create some problems and that is bad
for you. But except that wheat I said was true. I had made some planning.” He
smiled.
I want hug him and kiss him. I know he is thinking
the same but we were in a public place. So, I took his hand in mine and
pressed. He looked around us and sighed.
“Jo, don’t misunderstand me, please…. And don’t do
that ignoring act. He told, “if you don’t want to spend the life with me……….”
I pressed hard as if assuring him.
“After school I’m going to the dentist with mom.” I
told, “It’s a routine check up.”
“Meet me after”. He said and pressed his two
fingers on his lips then pasted it on my lips and was gone. John is coming. But
he didn’t see us. I called and walked to him.
“Why are you so happy.” John asked as we were
walking.
“Because it’s not raining.” I said.
Sky is darkening so we walked fast.
“Hey Josh ….” He called. “I think Chris is playing
a game with you.”
“How come..? I asked, “Messenger appeared you at
night?”
“I’m not joking.” He was serious. “I think he is
not like Daniel; you were with me when I asked him if he have a girlfriend and
he said yes.”
I nodded, “We are just friends, John.”
“He wants sex with you. He is preparing you for
that with this friendship. So, keep away. Daniel said there is more people like
him.” He advised.
“You talk about Chris with Daniel?” I was fuming.
“No, he was explaining to me about the peoples. So
I know about Chris. He had the same look in his eyes when he is looking you.”
John told.
He misinterpreted Chris eyes. I smiled at my living
encyclopedia.
“Don’t worry. I won’t be a prey.” I assured him.
“But John, you both can’t marry?’
“You are such a dumb!” he stated. “In what era you
are living? Here we can’t. But we can some foreign countries. We are going and
will settle there. Of course, after we are completing our study. Daniel will go
first and he has his relatives there. His cousin is helping him. He will go
first and arrange then take me. It will take four years and he planned
everything of our future.”
John is beaming. I looked him admiringly. Really he
had more knowledge than me. How he is beaming when he is mentioning Daniel’s
name. How Daniel planned everything for him and John.
Something lighted in my mind. Chris… he was saying
the same yesterday! I was beaming too.
And after lunch John had an upset stomach and had
to go.
Dentist said my teeth are okay and don’t have any
cavities. So we are early home. I quickly changed into my house uniform and ran
to Chris. He was in his room working. Aunt said. He was to the library and
takes home some old documents to study for his research.
I was near his door when Chris called, “Jo, come in
and lock the door.”
I did as he said.
Chris was lying on the bed. His eyes were shut and
his hands were folded under his head.
“Come close...” he told.
I was near him when he lifted his right hand and
pulled me to his chest. I fell over his chest and adjusted my body on top of
him. His hands seized me but kept his eyes close.
“How did you know it was me?” I purred.
“I just know.” He murmured. “But how…. I didn’t...
maybe… it’s my heart.”
He opened his eyes and looked my face. It was full
of love. We were bursting with love.
“I know what was you saying yesterday.” I said
softly. “John explained”
“How John can explain? You asked him…? Chris asked.
“No…no...” then told him about John and Daniel and
their relationship. He was smiled as he listening and said, “They are lucky to
have each other. God bless them.”
I placed my cheek to his chest and listened the soft
pounding of his heart. He tightened his hands.
“Just lay there,” he whispered. “We will lie like
this till the end of world.”
But it was not the world ending when someone
knocked the door. It was only half an hour. We untied our body and I slip to
the side and to the floor. Chris was getting up from the bed and I pointed to
his middle. He looked there and shook his head shyly. He was hard and an
enormous protuberance is there. We looked at each other and he shakes his
finger to me. He moved to open the door as he was patting down his bulge flat.
I walked to the chair and sit on it.
It was John who is knocked. He was late.
“Sorry Chris...” he apologized. “I had to go woods
with my friend for collecting some specimen for his science lab.”
I mouthed Chris I will tell later. He followed
Chris look and saw me.
“Josh… you are here!” he exclaimed. He looked me
searchingly and then Chris. He is suspicious.
“What you both were doing the door locked?” His
eyes are searching us.
“Nothing,” Chris told him. “We were working on
something and don’t want to show others before it finish.”
John nodded as he understood but I know later he
will question me.
What I think then happened next day at lunch. We
were alone in a corner and whispering to each other.
“Don’t tell me. But I know what happened there.” He
told suddenly.
“What are you speaking?” I didn’t understand his
sudden outburst.
“You and Chris in his room.” He cleared.
“Nothing as you thinks” I said. “The room was
locked because Chris was showing me love of his life. And he don’t want aunt or
grandma would come and see because he said he don’t want to show them now.”
This is true.
“How is she?” now and then my clever friend is a
fool.
“Very charming.” I said.
“Oh… sorry Josh. I thought you both were having
sex.” He said flatly.
I tried my hard to look shocked. But John had some
of his doubts undecided. Because he saw I was blushing.